Interesting how I stated last week how I am going to make two meals to the maximum yet, I find myself still low in wonga because of my living situation so, I sometimes wonder did spent really teach my anything except since I live in a low income area and, that many people such as myself whom are low income don't get the respect that they deserve; however, being sneaky about certain things does not make it right either for, I could be helpful towards the house but, I feel like I am living with ungrateful people at this point for, they eat everything up in one sitting to only complain that there is nothing to eat.
I sometimes wonder how is it that I can spend $65 on food that last me at least two week but, when my family wants to eat what I cook they go off and start complaining but, they are not doing anything to bring in more money into the house; I can't help but, pity them especially my mother who works seasonal/temp employment because she did make some type of effort to make some type of arrangement so that we could have some sort of food in the house yet, she is now eating everything and complaining. I have been forced to tell her that she should not complain because she should not be eating everything up when she knows there is a limited income; that being stated she should realize that and understand that she was in that situation where she was the only one working and, she had two children take care of. I am not trying to sound selfish but, what does she expect out of a person whom only makes $7.75 an hour? What does she expect when one person is working anywhere from 12 hours to 22 hours out of the week? What does she want from a one person that is working when it comes to some of the bills? Is she even being realistic at this point?
A small second part time job of an income of $9 to $10 an hour could make a difference yet, working anywhere from 12 to 24 hours on the weekends will take a toll on my body because I am going to be doing a lot of physical work so, the point is to stay healthy at these time because it starting to look that my family is beginning to take a toll on my stress level. I might have to do a budget at this time because me keeping up with the food bill for one is bad enough because I can't do this with two people in the house that are not working and, to take on a second job that can make up for one person not working is cool but, someone else needs to start looking for a job.
January is going to be the start date for my second line of employment because that will be the month were everything is fresh and new so, with that being said whatever happened in 2013 stays in 2013; I am already calculating the income expenses for the month of January so far they are not looking too good; I find myself stressing because of my situation plus that fact after January 31 I am going to have to find a third seasonal job in order to lightening the load for a short period of time so, whatever summer job that I can grab I am going to try my best not to lose it because that is another source of income that I can grab. The Summer job will more than likely be Wait Staff or something to do with baseball because with the way things are now my life seems to go south when money comes up in discussions. Who is budgeting? No one and, I cannot do all these things because I am not use to having to do them but, I know that I will have to do these things to survive if I should ever live on my own.
The second job that is coming I really am hoping that the $9 will help because it looks so uncertain because the way the family is eating; the eating is what is killing me so, I have been forced into going to the local dollar Store to buy things that no one really likes but, has no choice but, to eat it. I have found myself spending $47 to $65 dollars in food which is a lot but, when comes to dealing with people whom are now acting like P.O.W. its getting crazy to the point that I think that my mental health is going to go south.
I remember that night when I made those shells and marinara its was crazy that when I went to get some more the pot was empty then they wanted to complain about the food; I want them to stop complaining because its not going to help the food runs out quicker because we have one person that does not eat like he has some sense. We have only one regular income coming in and, we have one person who works maybe three times out of the years so, what do you want from the one that is working on the regular part time basis?
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