New life changing experience

I have done some reading during the past few weeks and researching the internet to see what I could find, and I found something that took my interest was a Phlebotomy class that had a certification after two days which cost $350.00 so, I decided to save up for it since there are going to be occasions that hospitals and medical centers are going to need phlebotomist such as the summer or winter.   Then my mother was telling me about a game she played and, how it showed the low-income class is living now a days which included us; well I am very fortunate to have a job but, I don’t know whether I will be able to have a second or even a third job.   I went on the website and its called playspent.org which is powered by the Urban Ministries of Durham and, Durham is not that far from where I live so, it made sense what I was getting myself into when it came to seeing the living arrangements of some people. 

Well I tried all the jobs and even though I can type 50 words per minute I still didn’t get the Temp job so, I guess that no one could get it or it’s a simulation of showing how many Americans are unable to effectively type on the normal basis but, with the Warehouse associate job and the waitress job it made sense of what I was going through in order to make ends meet.   Thinking very methodically I manage to come out with $1123 at the end of the month but, rent is due on the first which is not a problem because rent is $600.  The little game allowed me to learn how lucky I am to just have a job but, to get a second or even a third is just not possible; if I am lucky to have a second job or a third job which is much would put me at a better scope for, its hard times that we are all living in. 

What came to my mind when it came to having those whom are well off to play that game is Wendy Williams because her AskWendy segment I can disagree with because she is always telling people to have them move out or find somewhere else to stay.  Wendy is famous and got money coming out of her butt so, she would not know how hard it is to make ends meet when you have only $1000 a month to go by and, have a job where you are making anywhere from 1.88/an hour to $9-$10/an hour.  In addition depending on the industry that you are working in the taxes taken off are higher than others so, does she really know what it’s like to work hard every day to live paycheck to paycheck?  No I really don’t think she does nor cares to take the time to know what it’s really like to make a living on almost nothing. 

Doing that little game was a big eye opener because I never known how hard it really is to be out of work and, that how lucky I am to keep this little part-time job I have going for me.  I am really thinking of taking that phlebotomy course I know that looking for phlebotomy jobs are hard but, anything that is going to keep my family above water will have to do.  Everyone says that their situation will not be this way forever but, things are going to get worse before they get better actually for, those in office don’t really see how bad this country’s people are really unemployed and are struggling to make ends meet. 

Its time to make better decisions and keep persistent in find any type of employment and, making sure that all the bills are paid as well as what is needed for survival.   

Thanksgiving no work today

Last Thanksgiving money was tight and we barely could afford a fried turkey but, this years was going to be different for, we had a roast turkey breast that was stuffed and fried turkey that we made all the trimmings with.  This year is going to be better for I am going to have a turkey and honey baked ham dinner for the month of December because that is another time when we had no food; mother had a mental break down in December of 2011 when we had no food no money at home because father spent it on a luxury vacation with his mistress and her children.

Now that we are in the financial means to have such a dinner this is the time for me to personally remember how better off that we are now than we were in many years before us; I hope that one day I can make a better change in my life and, move on to other things that will help overcome things that should have never happened.  In 2014 its going to be a new chapter in my life for I am going to have two seasonal jobs that I know that I can get with my determination; one is going to be a summer job either has a golf caddy at the local golf course, working at the local baseball stadium or some job at the community pool which all pay well but, I would like to do something more on the lines of fun rather than for pleasure.  Next I will have a seasonal holiday job which I will start the search for around September because that is the best time to look for one, I am going to try places like PartyCity, Kohls, Jcpenny, Macys, and other places like that for Greeter, Cashier, Sales Associates but, I am not going to limit myself in the lines of gift wrapping because there are many jobs available for those whom want to just gift wrap.  That is the easiest job to do and, the pay is pretty decent depending on what state that you live in but, more importantly I am going to have two seasonal employments no matter what happens because I want to keep myself busy as much as possible.

In other words around the month of February there will be a certain someone looking for summer work for the season of summer and, I will make sure that line of employment will last long enough until the end of September when I can find the holiday season job.  I know that more than likely I will go with stuff like PartyCity because they start looking around that time but, there are other places that I know will be looking for the holiday workers.  That is more money for me and, they can let me go after January 31 which is when all holiday jobs end so, that they can look for those on the lines of summer work.

We'll see when the time comes....

Another day

Today my job had a luncheon to show appreciation for their employees and, even though that I am new as well as participating in a luncheon which was funded by everyone involved which included myself; it taught me some things about my co-workers and what backgrounds each one of them comes form for, I see that each dish that they brought in told me where they are from, what kinds of foods that they like and, how they spend time with those that they care about the most.  It some how made it very special for me to see what kind of people that I am working with and, how I can expand my horizons better than ever before.  Before working with my current place of employment my association with people was limited but, now that I meet more people from different walks of life, I can only imagine what else is in store for me as I go outside of my comfort zone a little bit more.

I learned a lot of some of my co-workers whom do not cook and ones that do cook.  Its amazing to see what lives some of my fellow workers live outside of their job and, what information they know about each other but, right now they don't know much about me but, over time they'll find out the kind of person that I am.  I hope to have more memorable moments such as today and, to learn more about who I am associating with in the workplace as well as how they are like outside of the workplace.

I would like to show them who I really am and, what type of person that I can be, I want to show them my personality as well as things they may never thought of me to like or dislike.  There are some things about me that are going to be kept a secret and, there are some things I will those whom I wish to be close to find out about me when that time comes.  I am going to allow the real me to show through rather than the one that I think others want to see but, I am not going to get too friendly right now because it can hurt me in the long run.  There are times that I wonder when it comes to people do they want to show them the real person they are or the ones that they want me to like; most of the time there are many whom I ignore because I don't like the character that they have nor the personality trait they are carrying.

I find myself not liking certain things about people and, that's okay because each one of us is different.  I know one thing about myself that is I don't like those whom use other people's things and, not replace it but, they want to use it.  In addition I don't like those whom take things without asking to see it or use it but, these are the same type of individuals that want to have me as friend or as an associate.  Those are toxic people that everyone should avoid or a type of toxic person that everyone should avoid at all cost.  I find myself liking those who bring out the best in you and, don't care what you are on the outside but, what you are on the inside.

That's another thing that I would like work on is finding friends from different walks of life and, finding the ones that bring out the best in me; they don't have to be the same age as me but, they can different talents that I posses or not.  They don't have to be the same race or background like myself but, they are going to have to accept me for whom I am.  Like everything else I have to take the initiative so, while looking for other things in life I have to take the step in meeting new people which in times has to go out of my comfort zone.

The same will go when I give myself a make over after the new year because I do plan on making a change in my life and, in order to make that change I am going to have to make adjustments to whom I am now.  I don't want to be the old person that was unemployed, selfish, not marital material and, a lot of other negative things.  I want to dress in a way that best expresses my new personality and, shows the best in me rather than the worst in me; I would like to try new things that I have not before because I was afraid of what others might think.  Not anymore, this is going to be a new chapter in my life so, whatever others think its not going to affect me because they are individuals whom don't know me and are assuming based on many different reason which is based on perception due to my outward appearance, race, creed, national origin, and many other factors that they are going on based on looks alone.

I am going to take baby steps in order to make my changes in life permanent and, I am going to start off with goals like a person would do to lose weight or something else that they want to be permanent for the rest of their life.  My first step is to take better care of my hair because I am no longer going to dye it and, I am going to grow it out so, that I can embrace my personality as well as my femininity; my hair is going to be the first step of many things that is going to be achieve over time.  Once my hair has been accomplished the next will be my nails, followed by my skin, and the rest of my body that I would like to change for, I have the power to change who I am both on the inside as well as the outside. I was blessed with the freedom to express the person that I am and, I will express myself very openly in a positive way.

I hope by the summer of 2014 that I will achieve all my top five goals and start on a new range of goals to be accomplish by the winter of 2014.  The more I work on my goals the more likely my outcome will be for me to change the person that I am and, I will take every little step along the way.

Its just another day of me changing my negative personality making it into a positive personality.

It feels so weird...

Today I walked to Subway to get a tuna sub and to be able to buy it with my own money, it reminded me the how lucky I am to be hired once again to be able to do the things that I want whenever I want to do.  Now the next thing in line is to get a car and, drive where I want to go or where I need to go.  That is going to take some time because right now I don't have the means of buying a car and, getting a personal loan right now is harder more than ever.  I don't know what kind of car that I want but, there is a part of me that wants a Jeep but, seriously I need to be realistic in what I can afford as well as maintain for the time being.  Now looking around the neighborhood as well as many leads that I could pick up the choices are limiting because a lot of people are trying to sell cars that are in need of work.  Looking into my personal finances it does not seem a good time right now to look for a car or to buy something that is a piece of junk right now.  It would be nice to find a decent car around $1000 to $2000 that I can buy out right yet, there are always those whom put up pretty picture but, when the person goes to see the actual car its a piece of garbage.

Now that I have a regular paycheck coming in, I can buy better quality of clothes at places such as Dress Barn, Coldwater Creek, Chicos, Talbots, Steinmart, and many more places that I had once dream of being able to shop into for the last five years.  I beginning to wonder can I get a car and some clothes with a personal loan but, the fear of credit might make the circumstances come out differently because I am only working part-time as well as trying to support a family on one small income. Its hard living at home with a single parent that is not working and, a sibling that is very selfish more than ever before; I wish that I could find another part-time work that could help me balance the spending but, that's wishful thinking because there is not way that I would be able to find anything else until the summer.  Seasonal work comes and goes but, the money outcome of it will be nice and, it will help build my resume for the time being since I am over 18 years of age.  I hope that some of the places that I would love to shop at will have summer work available in the upcoming months; I was told by the local tanning salon they don't start looking for people until the spring so, around February i'll start looking around then.

That would be cool to work seasonal jobs as another way to pay off my loans, bills and other debts that I have accumulated over a five year period.  I hope to be aware of any new seasonal opportunities that come about for, this will make my mother very proud for, she always told me that sooner or later that I would need to take the initiative in order to find work as well as other things in life.  I am taking the initiative in finding seasonal work and, when its all said and done, maybe this will motivate my brother to find work; there is always that case that he may not be motivated enough to the point that he'll have to fall flat in order to make some effort to have his own income coming in.

There is one thing that I can count on when it comes to hiring seasonal workers which are Retail and Restaurants because they are always in need of people during those seasons when the holidays come about or in the summer when children are off from school as well as the college students throwing crazy theme parties are whatever comes to mind.  Restaurants tend to be busier in the summer because of the vacation time and, the flow income from teens as well as college students coming in for, college students are on the go go so, they need to eat once in a while to keep themselves moving.

We'll see when that time passes but, right now it feels so weird that I am around those whom are working and, my brother is at home wasting away playing mindless video games.  Its a shame that he is not using his potential to the fullest extent like he wants to but, there is going to be a day that he had wish that he did use his talents because jobs where we live at require one to three years of experience when it comes to dealing with potential employees based on the job requirements that they are looking for.

Trouble waters

I come home from work today to find out that my brother is going down the wrong track so, its best to state that I cannot worry about him anymore but, all I can do is pray for him.  Prayers are very powerful and I can just imagine how bad he would be if I was not to pray for him like I do; I have to work harder on myself to make myself a better person.  I am looking for other opportunities outside of my job as well as doing some light moonlighting because money is tight for, I am the only one that is working on the regular right now.  My plans are to get employed by the Tropical Smoothie Cafe as a part-time Crew member because working a full-time job and a part-time is too much right now but, two part-time jobs give me the flexibility that I need for more important things such as Family, Religion, Friends and school.

If I don't get hired then that's fine to but, I do need something to supplement what I have going on right now so, if its in my power to have something other than where I am working at then I will have to do my best with the funds that I have limited.  I hope that I can get a second part-time job getting paid anywhere from $7.25 or more an hour because currently I am working 7.75 an hour which varies from 15 to 28,50 a week in hours.  My second job I hope to do anywhere from 15 to 26 hours a week in work because I like to be a hard worker for, a person who does not work does not eat.  If I am not going to work hard then I am not going to eat well like I would like to; its a shame to see some think the complete opposite now a days.  Its takes time and persistence to finding something more so than ever before and, no matter how much I hate some of the customers that I deal with there is no way I am quitting this employment.  I would rather stick it out than quit without really knowing if I was going to find another job or not; my hopes of finding a second are really good because I keep putting in applications and presenting hours that I am available to work so, I look at it this way, the more work the better the results will be in finding a second job.  I also need to better assess my finances because careless spending is not going to help me when it comes to finding a car, keeping a good bank account and, making sure what little bills that I have are being paid on time.

What I want to do first is get a car, I don't care what type of car that I have as long as its in good condition and, can get me where I need to go for the time being.  I also need to make sure that I have the right finances of keeping it maintain and, make sure that the car will not break down on me while I am driving for, there is no reason the drive should be pushing the car.  I have seen that happen so many times its not even funny.  I truly hope that I can find something in the upcoming future because I really do need some wheels to get around in so, my best option is to find a car that I can call my very own.

Second I want to build up my bank account and make sure that I have enough money in them so, that I can be better prepare for the unexpected things as well as for the expected things.  I want the least in my bank account $900 and the most can be any amount at least something realistic.

Third I want to keep all my personal spending at its minimum so that I can be prepare to spend less rather than spend more but, with a sibling that does not care for, he is neither working nor spending money he does not worry because he believes that mom and I will take care of it.  

Fourth will come at another time because I do not know what the fourth thing was.

Right now I hope that the trouble waters that are brewing go away but, the trouble waters in this case are the actions of my brother for, he is not doing what he needs to be doing.  He is going the opposite direction of what he is suppose to be doing so, right now I cannot worry about him I need to focus on myself to make me a better person.  I hope that over time my brother can make a change for the good as well as for the better.

Times that we're living in.

Once again there are days that I wonder what type of people am I going to bump into and, I find myself liking some less than others and I find myself looking for those whom share only the same christian beliefs that I do.  I favor those who believe in what Jehovah God commands of us because he knows what is right as well as what is wrong so, when I comes across those in the world that have such strong view points I tend to look the other way because they are going down to a path of destruction.  I would rather live in harmony with Jehovah God's laws such as his followers did back in bible times because I see that the signs are coming close and I really want to make a effort to please him as well as to better serve him.

As a young person I find it is hard at times to make arrangements to go to my christian meeting but, lately I have been listening in on the telephone and, I have to state that I am really happy with what I am doing for, I feel like I am there dealing with the brothers and sisters of the congregation.   I hope that in the new year I can start to go on the regular basis and, interact with them so, I can progress further in the kingdom ministry as well as make it to baptism.   I have been making it an effort to pray to Jehovah God daily as well as do what is expected of my but, there are those things that I have done that I really need to work on.

I would like to make wiser decisions and train my perception powers so, that the decisions that I make in the future will reflect better.  In the future I hope to be able to respect my heavenly father more by dressing appropriately when coming to the meetings and, make sure that my appearance goes accordance of what he has written in his word the bible.  I so far had made it an effort to make sure that I keep my hygiene up to par but, there is always room for improvement as well as better maintaining clothes so, that I would not be embarrass to be seen.   I saw an old video archive from the 1950's and I decided to use that because what can work for young women in that time period sure could help for a young woman in this day and age; I love what I have learned in that video because it taught me how to look presentable not only abroad but, at home as well.  Keeping appearances does not stop when you walk in your home, its a twenty-four hour deal that we all should do no matter what the circumstances may be.   The woman on the video stated that in one month if a girl or young woman was to follow what she had taught that they would be more attractive, more confident and more presentable no matter where they were in the world.

I found a couple of other videos that talked about the importance of grooming also and, how the social changes where from the 1950's up to modern times; I find that you gain more respect in the 1950's by the way you dressed and looked.  Some of those key principles are the same today but, no one is taking advantage of it to the fullest extent.

In the last couple of weeks I learned that in order to get the things that I want, I would need to work hard for them.  I should not worry about another person's showy means of life and, I should focus on my spiritual life which is more important; I need the things that are needed for survival so, having a luxury car or the latest fashion accessory is not important but, what is important is how I represent Jehovah God and show how I am a follower of his son Christ Jesus.

I took the initiative two days ago by purchasing a at-home manicure kit that only cost me a dollar at the local dollar tree store, I began the process of doing my nails on the regular basis so, that I can maintain their appearance so, with that being said in the next week I can go back to the local dollar tree and get a pedicure kit to do my feet as well because they should not be overlooked.   I hope to around the summer be able to wear my hair in a style that is modest but suitable for my facial shape as well as the features that I have been blessed with.

Modesty is my new policy and looking at others my age it seems that modesty has long died but, I don't wish to follow the flock for that would lead me to a road of death.  To keep that picture in mind I have found an old Disney film that talked about the making of a Nazi which leads to a road of death and, the end result was all those men marching their way to graves.  The sight of that and many other things that I see in this life are something that I do not wish to be apart of because there is nothing out here that is going to do me any good.  I hope to not have any follower on this site because they could turn me off the path of the straight and narrow.

Right now I am going to focus on my spirituality and make sure that my lifestyle is accordance to God's law.

Introduction

The ending of 2013 is close at hand and, I am going to state that this was a good year for me that is why I am going to blog about the new adventures that I will be facing.  The circle of my life has made it easy for me to make the right choices and learn from the mistakes that I've made; learning new things to prevent other mistakes along the way.

I hope that my outcome from this year does not badly affect me and my family for the new year that is coming and fast approaching.  There are new opportunities around every corner so, I am going to make the best effort to make sure that I am doing all I can to make sure that my actions will not hurt me.