Today my job had a luncheon to show appreciation for their employees and, even though that I am new as well as participating in a luncheon which was funded by everyone involved which included myself; it taught me some things about my co-workers and what backgrounds each one of them comes form for, I see that each dish that they brought in told me where they are from, what kinds of foods that they like and, how they spend time with those that they care about the most. It some how made it very special for me to see what kind of people that I am working with and, how I can expand my horizons better than ever before. Before working with my current place of employment my association with people was limited but, now that I meet more people from different walks of life, I can only imagine what else is in store for me as I go outside of my comfort zone a little bit more.
I learned a lot of some of my co-workers whom do not cook and ones that do cook. Its amazing to see what lives some of my fellow workers live outside of their job and, what information they know about each other but, right now they don't know much about me but, over time they'll find out the kind of person that I am. I hope to have more memorable moments such as today and, to learn more about who I am associating with in the workplace as well as how they are like outside of the workplace.
I would like to show them who I really am and, what type of person that I can be, I want to show them my personality as well as things they may never thought of me to like or dislike. There are some things about me that are going to be kept a secret and, there are some things I will those whom I wish to be close to find out about me when that time comes. I am going to allow the real me to show through rather than the one that I think others want to see but, I am not going to get too friendly right now because it can hurt me in the long run. There are times that I wonder when it comes to people do they want to show them the real person they are or the ones that they want me to like; most of the time there are many whom I ignore because I don't like the character that they have nor the personality trait they are carrying.
I find myself not liking certain things about people and, that's okay because each one of us is different. I know one thing about myself that is I don't like those whom use other people's things and, not replace it but, they want to use it. In addition I don't like those whom take things without asking to see it or use it but, these are the same type of individuals that want to have me as friend or as an associate. Those are toxic people that everyone should avoid or a type of toxic person that everyone should avoid at all cost. I find myself liking those who bring out the best in you and, don't care what you are on the outside but, what you are on the inside.
That's another thing that I would like work on is finding friends from different walks of life and, finding the ones that bring out the best in me; they don't have to be the same age as me but, they can different talents that I posses or not. They don't have to be the same race or background like myself but, they are going to have to accept me for whom I am. Like everything else I have to take the initiative so, while looking for other things in life I have to take the step in meeting new people which in times has to go out of my comfort zone.
The same will go when I give myself a make over after the new year because I do plan on making a change in my life and, in order to make that change I am going to have to make adjustments to whom I am now. I don't want to be the old person that was unemployed, selfish, not marital material and, a lot of other negative things. I want to dress in a way that best expresses my new personality and, shows the best in me rather than the worst in me; I would like to try new things that I have not before because I was afraid of what others might think. Not anymore, this is going to be a new chapter in my life so, whatever others think its not going to affect me because they are individuals whom don't know me and are assuming based on many different reason which is based on perception due to my outward appearance, race, creed, national origin, and many other factors that they are going on based on looks alone.
I am going to take baby steps in order to make my changes in life permanent and, I am going to start off with goals like a person would do to lose weight or something else that they want to be permanent for the rest of their life. My first step is to take better care of my hair because I am no longer going to dye it and, I am going to grow it out so, that I can embrace my personality as well as my femininity; my hair is going to be the first step of many things that is going to be achieve over time. Once my hair has been accomplished the next will be my nails, followed by my skin, and the rest of my body that I would like to change for, I have the power to change who I am both on the inside as well as the outside. I was blessed with the freedom to express the person that I am and, I will express myself very openly in a positive way.
I hope by the summer of 2014 that I will achieve all my top five goals and start on a new range of goals to be accomplish by the winter of 2014. The more I work on my goals the more likely my outcome will be for me to change the person that I am and, I will take every little step along the way.
Its just another day of me changing my negative personality making it into a positive personality.
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